THE DECIMATION OF MAE by DH Sidebottom
AUTHOR: D.H. Sidebottom – Author’s Facebook Page HERE
TITLE: The Decimation of Mae
SERIES: Blue Butterfly, Book 1 (Book 2 Review HERE)
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MY STAR RATING
The Devil visited me three times in my life; albeit, my short life. Not in the physical sense, you must understand, but very much literally.
He was persistent, resolute and tenacious. His ruthless greed to annihilate me was utterly disturbing. I am sure if he had hierarchy, the man at the top would have dragged his arse into Hell’s prison for his unscrupulous methods.
I was just fifteen when I first became aware of what he was capable of. This initial taste of him set the playing field for how my life was to be lived – for want of a better word.
He mocked me, showed me mercilessly how he played the game and how he liked to cheat at said game. He ridiculed and taunted me until, six months later, he won and took something of so much importance from me that I would never be the same again.
His second visit was, in my eyes, so much more cruel and heartless. I know we’re talking about the Devil here, and yes, you have a right to say he had no heart but even then, even when I was so utterly broken, I begged to differ and hoped – no, prayed – that somewhere deep in the caverns of his black, tortured soul there was something that beat and confused his emotions once in a while.
The third visit was somewhat different than the other two. He tried, and at first succeeded to bring me to my knees once and for all, but then something happened. God finally intervened and altered Satan’s intention; he sent hope and morphed the Devil’s minion into an Angel, hoping to break and shatter the anguish and suffering. He gave the ability for me to feel pleasure in pain, order in the chaos and light in the darkness.
But in giving me a reprieve, he also gave me something that would finally and ultimately obliterate me. He gave me the capability to love, therefore giving me the ability to be destroyed.
And Satan made sure that I was destroyed. Cruelly, viciously and sadistically.
I am Mae Swift, and this is the story of my decimation.
THE DECIMATION OF MAE by DH Sidebottom
This is a book I just randomly picked out of a list I found on Goodreads called Dark Tabboo reads. I didn’t read the synopsis (cos I like to surprise myself like that sometimes) and I am so freakin’ glad!
I KNEW it was going to be a good one before I’d even finished the first chapter!
THE FEELS! OMG THE FEELS!
This book ripped my heart from my chest, wined and dined it, then beat it to a pulp. After that it tried to squish it back where it came from but, it will never be the same. NEVER!
It was amazing from start to finish. Did it have a HEA? I don’t really know how to answer that. Yes…no…maybe..?
It is dark and delicious and one of the few 5-star reviews I have ever given.
The problem now is that I’m not sure how the next book in the series is going to compare. Like, how could it even be a fraction of this book after what happened at the end?
I’m going to read it anyway and let you know.
You know that feeling you get in your chest when you feel things and just can’t get them out? That’s how I felt reading this book. All the way through it my chest was heavy and tight.
- MAE – What a beautiful soul this girl is. She has lost so much from such an early age and is struggling every day to pull herself together to get out of the dark.
When she feels like life just might bet better, it rips her apart again..
he kept the threatening sneer on his face, and he kept his gaze full of ire. I knew then, before I took another step that that night… I would lose something I had struggled to hold onto for so long. Something that was going to be taken from me even if I tried with everything I had to hold on tight. But I wouldn’t go down without a fight.
She has the strength of a goddess and the sass and temper to back it up,
Who needs balls? She has a vagina! Hear her roar!
Her parents and twin sister are dead, she’s been alone since 15 years old. She was brutally raped at 18 and is dealing with it the best way she knows how. And now..? Fuck me.
I was born to fight, raised to persevere, and right then I was adamant I was holding the fuck on as hard as I could.
I love this girl. Her story is one of passion, sacrifice and the search for wholeness,
“I think you may have underestimated me, Mae.” I shrugged nonchalantly. “Maybe, but what are a few beatings, Master? Your fists will never reach my mind, your harsh cruelty will never brush against my soul. You hate me for that, but you also admire me for it.”
- MASTER/DANIEL – Wow. What a cold bastard. That’s how I felt when he first showed himself. Now that the book is finished…I have no idea how I feel about him. It’s very messed up.
Master is a sociopath that abducts Mae in order to train her to be a sex slave. She is to be trained in the art of sex and pain.
Master is not prepared for Mae though. Not even close. She fights back with a fire that no one else has. She refuses him even when he punishes her. He does everything he can to control her body mind and spirit. What more can he do?
“Your blood is mine, Mae. It is your life force, the very thing that feeds you. But now I substitute your blood. I am your life force, the very thing that will feed you, whether it be pain, misery or fucking pleasure. I am what will breathe life into you, not the air; me. I will be the one that controls each and every move you make, not your brain; me. I am now the very thing that will decide if you live or die, not your blood; me.”
- SEX SCENES – The sex in this book was way more than physical and to get the best effect from that you had to engulf yourself in the emotions that surrounded the scene.
They were more than sexy…they were passionate and soul moving.
“That’s it, my darling, take and give.” He started to finger my arse in rhythm to his cock fucking my pussy. The overwhelming fullness sent pulses of pleasure around my body and into my brain, taking my inhibitions and destroying them along with any pain inside my soul.
FINAL THOUGHTS on THE DECIMATION OF MAE by DH Sidebottom
There were a couple of twists in this story and I can tell you honestly, I had no idea they were coming. None at all.
I really really hope that the next book is as good as the first one but I’m not sure it could be,